IF - Dip

I haven't painting as much as I have in the past. And the painting I have been doing is much different then before. I'm letting go of trying to represent the world in a realistic manner and have started focusing more on representing form by letting the brush work its magic. I'm drawn to Asian art for its simplicity and its meditative qualities. This is what dip means to me.

Vincent Van Gogh was influenced by Asian art. In some of his paintings he painted Asian prints in the background. Why is this important? Van Gogh speaks of his desire to paint the underlying beauty of nature. He saw the beauty of life and that is what he was attempting to represent. I believe that it why his paintings appear timeless and are revered around the world. He captured in some degree that which is beyond the physical world.

On the origins of Spirtuality

Do we become spiritual or are we born spiritual? Why are some people more spiritual than others? Can a spiritual nature be cultivated? These are some of the questions I’m contemplating following one of the holiest Christian celebrations of the year. Unfortunately as with most questions there are as many answers as there are questions and the answers seem to vary from person to person. Of most interest to me is the question, why am I spiritual? I wasn’t raised in an overly religious family only occasionally did we attend church during my childhood so I can’t attribute my spirituality to any sort of religious indoctrination or focused effort on the part of those around me. There was a period around 10-14 were I was very afraid of the devil. However fear and spirituality aren’t on the same plane.

I believe nature holds the answer.

The ultimate reality (God) is most easily experienced in nature. To me God is the beauty found in nature, not esthetic (visual) beauty but something greater, more encompassing and timeless, something you experience with your heart and mind. When I was a child I was very independent and my Mother allowed me a lot of latitude to explore, perhaps too much but that’s a different story. One experience I remember was when I was four or five walking several blocks to play in a white wintery field of snow and ice. I would play amongst the dead cat tails walking on the crunchy ice of a frozen creek. The only sounds were the birds and the wind. I would push my feet through holes in the freezing water testing the limits of my boots experimenting to see how wet I could get them before the water would soak through. I stayed out until I got cold or bored, which was usually all morning, and then I would zigzag my way back to our suburban duplex. I spent hours alone with my own thoughts in a serene white landscape of silent falling snow. I was cultivating my imagination while connecting with my inner self.

Did I seek out these experiences because of an existing spiritual nature inside of me or was a spiritual nature cultivated by having these experiences? I suppose its how you choose to view it. As a child I didn’t have a conscious spiritual nature so I find it difficult to imagine that I went where I did to fulfill something already inside of me. It feels like these spiritual moments in nature transformed me into who I am today. Through them I was connected with the beauty that exists in me and in everyone. The timeless nature of our soul is what I discovered. All that was required of me was to be fully present in nature.

Explorations in Truth

In a comparison between scientific and universal truths, universals are of a higher order. I believe this for two reasons. First scientific truths deal with facts while universal truths deal with meanings. Facts are concepts that come from that which can be measured and quantified. Although in our modern world we tend to value only what can be physically substantiated which we call facts but facts have a shadow side, which is the possibility of being false. It doesn't matter if these concepts are ever proven to be false but by the mere existence of a POSSIBILITY that they could be wrong shows their lower standing in comparison to universal truths. Universal truths are immutable one sided knowings experienced through meaning. Facts express very specific concepts that pertain to closed systems with limited conditions. However the vast majority of our existence lies outside our immediate closed physical system. Here is an example. We know what happens physiologically and chemically when our hair grows but we have no idea why it grows, what causes it to grow, where do these processes originate from? Similarly is the thought of where do ideas come from? We have thousands of ideas every day, some good, some bad, but where do they arise from? No one knows and we probably can’t know, at least not in our current state of existence. On the other hand universal truths evolve out of that which is meaningful in our lives. So what is meaning? Meaning is the spiritual part of your existence; it’s in your DNA but it’s not your DNA. Meaning is timeless and universal. Meaning shares the same problem of all things that exist outside our physical world, that being the word to describe what ‘it’ is can’t be said. I can tell you what it’s like, I can point you in the direction so you can look towards it but my mouth can’t form the words to say what it is. How does a musician write a moving piece of music, how does a poet form sentences, how did Einstein discover the general theory of relativity? Just like the farmer that plants and waters a crop doesn’t grow the plants, they grow themselves, he just provides the environment for the miracle to happen. Meaning arises from the miracle of our existence and universal truths are inherent in this meaning. One example of a universal truth is that the rising and the setting of the sun has meaning to conscious beings. Universal truths are also separate from scientific truths in how they are formed. Scientific truths are concepts of reason. We observe physical quantities and then using reason we conclude whether or not the facts support our hypothesis. If they do support the hypothesis now and over time we will call them truth. The concept of a scientific truth arises out of reason and exists in our mind. On the other hand, universal truths are deep knowings that exist not only in our minds but in our being, they are the world around us. We can recognize and acknowledge their existence with our minds but they don’t arise there, they aren’t thoughts.

Why does this matter? To me why this matters, beyond the millennia that philosophers have been trying to define truth, is because by knowing that facts although relevant aren’t all that matter in life. Facts can get us into a lot of trouble when we focus on them as if they are truths. Look inside yourself and you will discover the truth.

The Buddha

There are many paths to a meaningful life.

Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional

Belief

Where I work we are endlessly discussing how we can get the disinterested students to improve in their classes. Inevitably the discussion revolves around what skills or material items they are lacking that would help them be successful. A better computer isn't going to make an unmotivated student be more focused or more responsible about their studies. A unreliable car, work issues, laziness, or life in general - these aren't the reasons why the unmotivated aren't successful. It's because they haven't found what they care about and haven't learned to believe in themselves. Showing them how to use Microsoft Office isn't going to get them to come to school when it isn't convenient. Motivation and focus, these are character traits that arise from discovering what is meaningful to each person. When we know what is meaningful to us we can then orient ourself in that direction. I believe this is how we make our underachieving students do better in class. Belief is a dirty word in most circles because it can't be measured or quantified. It doesn't factor into financial equations. I can't tell you what it is but I know it when I see it. Belief in yourself will get you out of bed when you are tired and it's cold outside, it will get you to harness all of your resources to achieve your dreams, it helps you grow as a person. Belief says to keep trying even though past experience predicts failure. Belief isn't rational that's why it scares people, we all want predictability and control. As much as all of us wish to control the world we live to ensure that everything is going to be alright, we just can't. There isn't any security in the physical world, everything could change tomorrow, so belief is all we have. What do I believe, I believe the world can be a better place to live in tomorrow.

IF - Fast

I find 'my' answers through reflection while the world reacts.

IF - Frozen

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